Going to funerals after a loved one has passed


I just wanted to put some feelings out there.

I have been to 2 funerals since my mum's one, and I wanted to hear of others thoughts.

I have had the same experience as my mums. I don't cry. At mums though I did cry when the hearse drove away, but not anytime in the ceremony.

With going to others funerals I have the same mentality. To not cry. Not sure if this is a common thing, but would like to hear of others experiences.

I am definitely sad but I don't want to cry in front of people. Not sure if it is to do with my mental state not wanting to seem emotional and unstable