can’t see my mum bc of lockdown


my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2014, she eventually got better was done with both chemo and radiation by the end of 2015 in 2019 , her cancer came back, much worse this time, since then it has been spreading all around her body , with Mets in her blood, bones, lungs etc. I moved to NSW to start uni, and now my mum is getting worse, her options of treatment are very limited and she no longer feels she can trusts her doctors as much after she had to have emergency reconstructive surgery due to a failed procedure (port for chemo) due to nsw covid crisis, borders have been shut and I’m not allowed to return back to tas, where everyone in my family is except me I’m now in lockdown by myself and am so so scared I won’t be able to see my mum before she passes , bc who knows how much longer the lockdown and restrictions will last in the past we haven’t had the best relationship, but have been significantly improving in the last couple months as I’ve matured from my move,, I don’t want the last memories with her to be so unfriendly and argumentative