Dilemma: To go back or to stay here

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My mom was diagnosed with bowel cancer last year July when covid situation was pretty bad around the world. She is in my home country and I have been living in Australia for 7 years (for study and work), still waiting to get my Permanent Residency that I have worked on for the past two years. As I wasn’t thinking to go back till I get my PR visa due to the border restriction, the pressure I get from my family and friends back home are stressing me out. They are questioning why am I not with my mom yet and how long am I staying here for etc. I love my mom a lot, we are very close and we talked on the phone everyday but it breaks my heart thinking I couldn’t be by her side even though I know she’s doing well with her chemotherapy. She told me to stay here as she didn’t want to hinder my future but I know she wants me to be with her. If I choose to leave everything behind, I will lose my career and opportunity to stay here. I know it is very selfish of me to think about my future plan at this time, but I feel hopeless just thinking about living in my home country, no work life balance, racial inequality, high crime rate etc. I just dont want to be stucked there for the rest of my life. Sorry for the long post and thanks for reading this.❤️