My Experience With Cancer

Soonie

Hi, My name is Sonia, but many of my friends call me Soonie and I am 16 years old. At the age of 9 I was diagnosed with a brain tumor. My parents thought that I was feeling extremely sick because I didn't want to go to school due to all the symptoms that have been going on. The tumor has been growing back almost every 1-2 years. Last year in 2014 one of the bad cells dropped into my back near my spine and I had to operate there aswell. Ever since 2009 I have done several operations and 3 doses of Radiotherapy.

This year in the middle of August I had to operate on my brain. My surgeon said that there may be a difficulty as my facial nerves were in the way to reach the tumor. From my operation till today the right side of my face has been paralysed. I've never been used to it because it has never happened before and I have people staring at me and looking at me weirdly. I know I have to accept it but it's to hard. I've always been a smiley person and ever since my latest operation I haven't been smiling as much as I used to. I can not hear in my right ear and I can not cry in my right eye. I feel so ashamed of myself. All my friends encourage me to go out with them to a party or even to go out shopping, I never really want to go because I am so upset over the fact that no one else knows what I'm going through.

I don't expect them too and I know that many people are going through harder struggles than I am but I am new to this and I don't know how to deal with it. That is why I signed up here, to make friends who would understand and know where I am coming from.