My name is matilda (my friends call me tilly). I've posted on here before..usually when I'm feeling a bit lost. I've recently got the news that my chemo has stopped working and cant help feel a bit betrayed even though my oncologist team have only tried their best to get be away from the situation I am at right now. This new years is particularly hard because i chose to do it without friends and family so that I wouodnt have to put on t brave face. I've been facing this dreadful disease since 2016 and I just dont want anymore of if. Now in dsp penton at 24 with my husband..we were/are Both educated and ready to face to workforce and I just feel like we are both waiting for the inevitable..anyway...not in the best place at the moment because I just wanna be be with my pals just finding it hard.