the day before treatment


hi I'm Victoria, and I am one chemotherapy every Monday each week. and always on Sunday I get down in the dumps cause this anxiety rushes over me knowing I have chemotherapy tomorrow. I don't tell anyone about it cause no one in my world in person understands. I hate the thought of being healthy one minute to being on treatment. I have huge anxiety on the thought of living on a drug. I should be grateful, but it is so hard to be grateful. does anyone have any ideas? or can you relate?