treatment isn’t working


so today I found out that my mum is back in hospital yet again due to the fact that her cancer is rapidly growing and apparently there is really no way to delay it anymore. she will be in hospital for the next few days and then she will return home for as long as she can. I feel like this is finally it for her and I will never really have a proper conversation with her again since she can’t talk. I’m only in week 1 of the school term so they are giving us a lot of work to start and I don’t think I will be able to handle having school on top of all this. I tried going to my grandmas house today as that helps me forget everything and get away from home life, but she also has cancer and her health is also pretty bad and I feel like I can’t escape the fear of my loved ones dying anymore and I don’t know what to do